This was 15 years, 9 months, 2 days ago

I may be angry, sad, upset, feeling guilty, but I can be better despite (or because) of all of this.

in terms of 'spiritual', mental analysis and interpretation:

what is important is a phenomenology, not a symptomology
a study of effect, not cause -- bachelard's reverberations, and not causality.

new year's resolution #4: good paths lead to good goals. to believe this every day.