This was 15 years, 2 days ago

I found some ansel adams photos in a bookstore the other day, and realized now -- wow, does he have a crazy sense of composition. his photographs collapsed to the point of blocks-of-color non-imagery would still be astounding, dynamic. no wonder. forget nature, sentences talking about "the grandeur of nature" or what not.

korea. it's cold here. I've eaten: 떡볶이, 붕어빵, 순대, 오뎅, 만두. off the street, mostly. quota fulfilled? I need to eat some potatoes at a highway rest station, chew on dried squid absentmindedly. oh no, against italicization.

(wait, what do italians call italics? surely someone's asked this before. let's google:
"italics in italy": 0 results.

perhaps italics in italy is still italics, some sort of self-referential? hamburgers in hamburg, frankfurters in frankfurt. haha. I am a korean, an italian, a hamburger, ich bin ein Berliner.)

is it funny to be back? things tingle in the end of my toes. i've moved, no longer living in my previous apartment. Hmm, I spent part of my puberty years there (pubertinous years? pubertinilicious? pubeilescent? oh, pubescent!). aw gosh, it's not the same being back, but it's the same ever.

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so far I've held importance in the in-between, the sliver of importance, the space between turned pages, the thickness of a photographic negative, things like that. the importance of a pause in the spoken word, sunlight on your nape as you turn around...

is seoul larger? seoul seoul seoul seoul seoul. funny place. oh gosh. gosh gosh gosh.

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"Personal density," Kurt Mondaugen in his Peenemünde office not too many steps away from here, enunciating the Law which will one day bear his name, "is directly proportional to temporal bandwidth."

"Temporal bandwidth," is the width of your present, your now. It is the familiar ∆t considered as a dependent variable. The more you dwell in the past and in the future, the thicker your bandwidth, the more solid your persona. But the narrower your sense of Now, the more tenuous you are."

-Gravity's Rainbow