found it, didn’t need to find it, it was always there, it’s always already there, more who I am than who I think I am, the inevitability of being who we are already, yes, including all of those parts too, already a humming sun at the center of my heart guiding me forwards, me-us.
(this point, a marker in the sand saying “0 miles loop that way; you’re right here”, not the hike but a guide to a hike I’ve already taken, so when I (or you) read this in a future time, let the trust of this present self tell you about a hike you can take / are taking already)
you know, don't you, don't you, you know, with bursting heart and exploding galaxies inside, of the setting moon and the rising sun, of what we did and what we found, where we went and where we always were?
yes, yes I do, I do, yes, I do, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes.
___, I do, I really do, remakrkably so, I really do, I do I do I do I do I do!
-jan 21, 2023.