really don't. I guess what I mean is -- how is it possible to be impermeable, to not have the things that you think and talk and read be seeping and oozing out through your pores? I don't get this internal segmentation and delineations, how it's possible, how it may be desirable. We are in the business of self-censorship, of words running back up and choking things that really want to come out, want to say, arguments that I think inside and curl around and sort of vegetate, mental kidney stones, clogged arteries.