one thing I realize: there is a thought process that happens on the level of thought, and there is a thought process that happens on the level of words: it is almost as if the specific sort of words and what they are, how they sound, what they mean attract a series of words that are then organized and formed into an argument outside the deeply abstract thought process itself. that is: if I keep on talking, if I start talking with an idea in my mind but not knowing _exactly_ what my final point is, then the inertia of my words form the impetus that leads me to generate an argument. a) this inertia is something that's valuable, and b) the thoughts that I end up thinking are a little different than the thoughts that are borne out of thought, and I'm interested in that, because it's sincere and intended but it also feels like improv, and it gets me this high, this coasting glide...