There is something suddenly nice about that fact that I can look out
into the distance from where I sit and can see the far sky above
queens, long island, the atlantic. My view is someone else's sky, the
clouds they see when they crane their neck upwards, a breeze
still-not-quite-balmy, the sun thinking about thinking about setting.
There are small and few reasons to get angry and to be annoyed, maybe,
but there are vastly many more reasons to sit and smile and be quietly
elated. Sometimes lately I feel the need to remind myself of the
necessity of tasting texture, of seeing the textural quality of
day-to-day events, not the semantic signifieds of marked
things-I-did-today.
What happened today? A slow ebb and flow. A hundred and three breezes
came in my window. I tried to think about thinking about nothing on
the train. Calm bike ride up broadway. Thoughts arrayed onto a page,
the sense of a impending summer, and so on. Movement is only movement
in relation to an absent. Everything is soil that accumulates in your
geological strata, accumulation that accumulates, moments that solidify and become constituted as a richness.